You make a wonderful friend, You make a crazy party animal, You make a great scholar, You make extravagant pictures, You make a lovely best friend, You make a good doctor, You make beautiful musical pieces.
BUT.
You are not.
You are an AWESOME friend, You are an HARDCORE party animal, You are an TOP scholar, You are an EXTRAORDINARY photographer, You are an MESMERIZING best friend, You are an AMAZING doctor and you are the BEAUTIFUL musical notes that make up the pieces of musical sheet.

I kept mum about your secrets so did you, I didn't hide secrets from you but u did, I trusted that you will tell me your secrets one day, yeah, that day will never come. Why? Because you are gone. Forever gone. But, I choose to love you more each time I think about you, because you were the dead man who brought my secrets into the grave with you which you kept this promise and that is why I still love you. I believed that you have your own reason that you kept mum about your secrets. You didn't lie, I know but you just didn't tell me if you had more secrets that I should know. I was thinking about your lies that I had known, I was thinking about what you did and why you did that? You ain't that guy who likes to do that. But why? Surely it ain't because of me because it didn't benefit me after a long time. You turned out to be the guy I expected to be and I liked that.

You guys just look so alike that everytime I see you, I want to call his name out loud.
Thank you for looking after me from above.

To Whom It May Concern:
Sometimes I wonder if you guys were my happiness who would be there always for me. Yes I am grateful that you guys are willing to hear and willing to help if you guys would. But you guys would always have that tendency to keep things away from me when I am there should be knowing something I shouldn't know. You guys proved me happiness and neglection. So, which should I choose?

To Whom It May Concern:
You are the so-called only one that I trust the most since You stopped talking to me the last time. Because you made the wrong decision and thats what I know. You did wrong things that you hide from me and you lied to me. You said that we will never drift apart and you said you are scared. THINK AGAIN. Are you? Let me rephrase everything. You are not afraid cause you got what you want. Your happiness and your friends. You have them so you just throw me one side until you need me then you pick me up. I ain't stupid. I just let you do what you want cause I don't want to quarell with you. I didn't give my opinons because I don't want to judge you. I respected you..

To Whom It May Concern:
You are a liar. You lied. You are a fucking GOOD liar. I can't believe I fell for it. Look, I ain't going to believe you anymore. You don't worth anything of mine. I dare you fucking touch my brother and see your future gone. I don't care if my future is gone after yours, Cause my brother always been the bad one, now it's my turn.

To Whom It May Concern:
I can't be bothered about you guys anymore. You betrayed my trust on you. I told you and you spread to the rest. U are lying and thats what I know. U ain't the girl who is judge my the cover. Fuck off.

To Whom It May Concern:
You guys can do anything without me. So, why bother asking me when would I be back? Oh, wait. I am just too self-centered. You guys asked so that you guys could prepare for the worst isn't? Yeah, I am just a trouble maker. I waste people time and money.

To My Boy,
U came back flowing. U came back smiling. U came back finding me. Why? Why did you even bother to come back. U made me the saddest girl in the world. You made me think back. You made me crying. You made me hiding. Why? I miss you.

Labels: I wanna die.

My tears have dried up, my laughther is gone, my true self is goodbye, my past self is hello. What if I runaway with you in the past? If time could turn back, I would do that cause I don't see any meaning staying in my current storyline being patient spending the nights alone waiting cold and tired. It all doesn't make sense it doesn't goes by the book. Everyhting is wrong. The love story prediction is wrong, the attitude prediction is wrong. What the fuck is wrong with all this. Hopefully thinking positive will help me through this painful journey again. I am literally going through the same foot steps like last time:( Fuck my life.

Let's start from 6 Feb 2011
So, I woke up early in the morning just to answer Janice's phone call. Then dozed off to sleep. Roy called, hurried to shower then prepare then went to simei to find him. Then went to 201 RC there to wait fo Jolene and Seeyee. Then slacked there for awhile the went to 201 mac to eat. Then slacked there agains. Then walked to interchange. LOL. complaining all the way. Haha. Then some fucked up stuff came up. Then at inter there saw Vinnie and Koksoon. Haha, Ps vinnie last minute cancled:). Then pei-ed seeyee do his contacts. Then took MRT to pasir ris. Thanks roy for the talk on the train:) then went to pasir ris mac there to wait for sengsoon. Then walked to the Prawn/Fish farm then Prawning. Haha! roy caught the first one and I caught the second then Seeyee caught a small fish CUTE! then jolene caught nothing then I caught the third one! haha! CLEVER bah:) then Seng soon also never catch anything... then Desmund and Osborn came. haha. then we gave the prawn to some china woman. LOL. then went to void deck to slack. hais. Then Pearlie and wendy came. Then after for awhile went to Ehub. then Eat. Lipaw and Dylan came. then went up to play pool, haha was fun up there. then Amos and Darryl came LOL. then ryan. haha. then aft. we went to 264 to drink. No mood. sorry guys. Thanks to Roy, Osborn, Jolene, Dylan and Sengsoon entertaining me and talking me out:) thanks alot guys. Then aft. Zax and frens came then slacked awhile then Zhiwei and Marisa came.Followed by Randy and MinEr Haha. Her voice! OMG. then went homr early. Didn't have much mood either. Then went home shower to cool myself down. then talked to roy on the phone and went to sleep:) thanks alot guys:)






So, I woke up early in the morning to listen to Jhonne Nags -.- Then Dozed off again. woke up prepared and went to school. Then reach school went dwn canteen with xinli. then aft. in parade ground mustaqim damn bastard! Shall not tell you why :p. Then went to find ms azninda with mus but can't find then went back to class LOL. haha. then aft. Mr mah's class. FML ttm. Read for two hours I was shivering for 3 hours. Cause it was freaking cold even during the 1 hour exam. It sucks to the max. Was damn sleepy too. then during recess LOL. meet Bernice, Liwen, Radiance and Xinli then went to eat. Then went back to class. Haha. then it was Chinese. LAWL ttm. It sucks too. Then IPW. Mr tan __. Then assembly. FUck it. it was corny for the malay dance. Ughh. then aft. end late. LAWL sucks. then went to 'MEET' caleb. then aft. rushed home. Chionged shower and everything. Then Kenz was rushing me like fuck.Then aft. went to Centuary Square to make shoe. then meet Kenz and run some errands. then MRT-ed to Orchard. ION-ed all the way.