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Sunday, September 18, 2011 - 5:04 PM
Alright, it's been long since I took photos so I decided to camphor with a few idiots. Pictures are in my private blog and you would find out who are the idiots. I have been procrastinating to study and eoy are in 2 weeks. Good news! I got 2As for my common test! As usual, I flunked Chinese. Have so much plans after eoy!! Alright, hope the pictures are clear!

Thursday, September 15, 2011 - 10:42 PM
I am a ex-friend that will be ever ready to catch you tightly when you are ready to fall. Ever ready to grab you when you are ready to get hit. Ever ready to be there when you need me. Though you have got your new life and begin with it, I have yet to start. What is stopping me from taking that step is you, my dear friend. I miss you. Do you? I know you know I still care for you. The way you look at me, I know. I mean, we have never do things that you are doing with them right now . Every run is because of you. I run to chase after you. I guess it's too late for me, I have a low esteem and never able to be as good as you. I don't hate the people who you are with, I admire them they could be with you. Because of you, my life has changed. To a better one. But now, a suffering one. I feel so light when I 'chase' after you. I feel like I am the wind. I feel freedom. I feel the wind blowing through my face like a never ending.
I don't feel tired when I think of you. Your face, our memories just appear in flash like screens. I feel like a superhero, the wind. You made another fear for me. Loneliness and unhappiness.

Saturday, September 10, 2011 - 4:19 PM
To my twitter followers, I told ya, I would be changing it! hahah. You like it? Well, I wasn't really satisfied with my theme, because it's too plain-plain. Which SUCKS. okay. Yes. that's a sunflower on the 'I' at Euphoria. I only did it in this post! check out my new blog-profile at the extreme right! now you guys could see my past post! how awesome! Well, I spent like 4 hours doing this. Yes. 4. Well, today i wanted to do a video, but my camera is with haojuan. Too bad. Shall do it the next post yeah?:) leave comments at my profile page yeah! Toodles!;)




Thursday, September 8, 2011 - 8:45 PM
Hey guys! Shan't elaborate about this morning.. Alright so I kinda spend my day away watching movie again?! Hahah. It was fun. I watched

BLITZ
It's all about this Freak who goes around shooting cops and at the end of the day, ya know, he still get caught and justice was brought out!

THE WHISTLE BLOWER
Damn man. This show is a must-watch show. Though there are a few inappropriate scenes in-between. But it's very interesting, it's about this detective who's a mother and she moves near her divorced husband just to stay near her kids. But she moved near there to be working as a detective. She then buld up a case against human trafficking. It touching enough that though the detective, Kathy she tried her best and all her rights to get the girls out of that place! It's a true story!

PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEN
fine, I am slow. I have exams okay! Hahah. It's nice! Watch watch!

THE SOURCE CODE
Whoo! This movie is another must watch movie because it's very mind decieving and about this captain, a solider he helps to save millions of lives of the America.

All right, shall end off here. Bye sweet hearts!

Monday, September 5, 2011 - 12:38 AM
Hey guys! So imma back to posting consistently which I should be applauded for!;) so, I am so happy that my dear boys from the other nation send me the video early this month! Okay, just gonna give details out. It noted to me that I should caution myself of my sensitive feelings because I might cry during the video playing, somehow or rather? Oh well, they also said they love me at the end of the note. And what really touched me was that they helped me make my birthday wish come true which I shared with them. And they also taught me that a dream, without help, it can't come true that easily. That's why we gotta share our dreams with each other occassionally. They showed me their togetherness and handwork. Their, outcome and results. They shared with me their personal thoughtsand regards. At first, I thought that they only had the 7 min plus video for me to watch but at the bottom of the video, there was another 50 minute video from them which they told me something special I have never heard from them before. They invited me to their plays but I decided not to go because I know shit happens. Well, I reared throughout the video which was kinda funny on the way.. Hahah. Anyway, yesterday, Timothy and I went to the stadium to watch the one FC championship! It was god damn fun! There was this Caucasian guy who sat beside Timothy wearing similar shirt! hahah, we saw hot babes and stuff like that. Sad to say, I had to leave early cause hyungs were coming over that's why! Sigh. But what was more disappointing was that Timothy msged me and said that Mitch lost!:(:(: why?! Omg! I feel so sad! I wanted to go to the after show part at the butter factory! Sighsighsigh! Oh yeah, saw a few long lost brothers there too. It brought back so much memories! Oh well, let's not dwell on the past! Alright, night bumble bees! 

Thursday, September 1, 2011 - 9:59 PM
So, I went Chinatown today. I shopped for beads. And accessories. These are handmade by me! heheh. I am so proud. My shoulders really hurt, so imma head to the shower now and have a massage then start ipadding!!!:D Great day pepps!

- 10:33 AM
You guys must be thining what happened to me? What happened to everything. I was wondering that too. And I thought it myself, maybe I was confused? Tired? or maybe I am just a failure? From the start of the day, in the car, my dad and me kept quiet while the radio was playing eminem song. I got the part on his rap. I knew what was it all about. But then I thought again, maybe he was saying something else? I think outside of the box, I understood it. so maybe I thought, This is life. how should it goes. We shouldn't play along. We should fight for. then when I reached school, I realise how many people I know but not a single one of them was that perfect best friend. I know no one is perfect. I know. but no one really understood me. No one. during recess, I heard a conversation that really made me think about, maybes'. Ifs'. but it was useless. I knew I couldn't turn back time. So well, after recess, it was mathematics. As usual, it was mr sim talk again. But this time round, it was different, mr sim talked about school matters. Not those discipline matters but he allowed us to ask questions.. Well, he said something which made me thought alot. Then it was science. Peiwen started being angry. Say the truth, I wasn't mad at her, I didn't think she was crazy. But i think that she was just depressed. Very depressed. Ms diyana talked to us about her and I realise maybe she is different. But just emotionally different from us. It was free period after that. I had gone through alot of thinking. The bottle cap struck me and I woke up. the first tear that teared down my face was the unhappiness and the unfairness. The second tear was the sorries I felt for everyone around me. Then they all started gushing out. I could then feel the pace of myself running, I could feel myself breathing so hard I could barely breathe. But I didn't care cause I was letting my sorrows out. I ran into the toilet. I turned the tap on, I saw the water gushing, it reminds me of all my lies. All my lousy excuses of lying. And the waste of my time. And I thought, maybe I was done. I was done trying so hard. But when I realise that I had a friend. Natasha. maybe she was the one who gave me the hope. But when she passed me the tissue paper, I felt strong again. I felt that I f i gave up, what's th point of trying so hard? When I walked into the class, I realised that actually everyone still cares for me. I felt it again. When I was with my teammates, I told myself. I will smile laugh. I won't get affected. But when I saw her, my heart just melted and I felt like running into her arms. We walked pass each other like we were just simply school mates nothing more than that. Well. I didn't want to let everyone down. I tried so hard. But each time I try, I fail. The harder I try, the faaster and harder I fell. What's the point? Well. I sat down and thought about it maybe it was me. Lack of the happiness and the work. I slept early. I woke up at 10 today. I decided to skip cross country. It wasn't my laziness but it was my tiredness. I couldn't have the energy to get myself out of bed. not physically but emotionally. I decided to stay home. but what makes my day is that dad is bringing me out!:)

I told myself 'you still have a long way to go. If you
can;t handle the stress now, what if you grow up and get out into the real
world? Whatcha gonna do?'


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