Time Check: 12:50
Feeling afraid. Afraid for everything.
Ms lim has yet to call mom and mom has yet to call Ms lim.
Ms Chong has yet to call me up but I am not gonna call her.
I am afraid of my future. Grades are dropping and I feel so hopeless.
This time was different. It didn't just affected my overall grades.
It affected everything around me. Fuck. I am so dumb.
Have yet to pack my bag for later. I hope I can put my mind off.
Catching and dreaming what I would wanna really do in future.
Afraid of meeting new people. Afraid of meeting people who judge me.
But then I thought. "It should be worth the risk isn't?"
It's now or never. It's never or ever.
I try so hard but no one sees my hard work. Why?
Am I not trying hard enough? Am I not good or clever enough?
Or Am I just someone who doesn't really fit in the society?
Being beautiful, flawless, slim, fair, sweet, kind and eco-friendly?
C'mon. I am not trying to participate in some beauty pageant or something.
I am just an ordinary girl putting on a mask just to walk on my life.
I feel insecure and hopeless.
Time Check: 12:57
Toodles lovelies.