I don't know where to start... I just feel like a piece of shit. Result slips are back and it is horrible. I only pass 2 for overall. Like so pathetic. Even though I get A1 for my maths and I admit I was rather satisfied with my result for maths, the rest was just to add on to depression. How is that even legally allowed in my own law. Sigh. I mean like seriously. Not about my nonsensical law but it's really depressing. Had a little talk with my parents. Haha. This time it was different. Way shorter and faster. I swear. But what adds on to the depression is that my mom says my improvement for math is "LITTLE" seriously what more do you want there's nothing more than A1.
It just feels like my world has turn upside down. I thought of extreme ways. What If I am left out of society. What If I have no status and recognition. What If I turn out to be those without future. What If I grow up struggling with money and life. What If I fail in life. What If no one loves me. What If .....
All these scares me alot and I really wanna cry when I think of it. It's just too scary.
What motivates me now really is the new Zealand trip. To really put down reality away for awhile and run away from society. Sigh...